Puppy for me and my blood pressure

He was born June 24, 2012. He'll be ready to come home August 19. He is a Teddy Bear (Bichon/Shih tzu). Both parents are Teddy Bears. Bella is mom, she's 3yrs. Jake is dad, he's 1yr (Twilight connection LOL). First litter for both parents. I can't wait to bring him home.

I should be feeling better

Watching what I'm eating is not hard thanks to myfitnesspal.com  I really love that site. I even plan out what to make and how much I can eat based off it and it's working great. I've lost 4.8lbs so far. My pants are more lose on me than ever before. I should be feeling great... My kids are driving me nuts and I'm struggling with not eating through the stress and depression. Please Lord, give me strength to get though this without failure. Carry me Lord, I'm tripping and falling. I ask this in Jesus name, Amen

Disappointing yet happy

I knew yesterday was going to be a bad food day. With all the stress and frustration I wasn't going to manage my food diary/calorie count well enough. I was right, not an ounce lost but, not an ounce gained either so for that I'm truly thankful!

Disappointment

I'm afraid to eat right now though I'm starving and it's after 11am. I'm an emotional eater and I'm not in a good mood. I should be on cloud 9 but instead I'm fuming over my 7yr old with ADHD who refuses to take his meds. He was on a liquid and figured out he was squirting it out onto the carpet instead of his mouth. Now he's on a capsule that he needs to swallow and he puts the pill under his tongue so of course it just starts to break down and when that happens you end up with a powdery mess all over the place! He's grounded to his room right now for MY health!!

I also wanted to start up a Biggest Loser group with my mommy friends. There's too many of us who need to lose too much weight. They apparently though are big talkers and not big do'ers. I've got some thin gals willing to use it as a support group to help them maintain or lose the 5-10lbs they are working on and one other lady who like myself has some poundage to actually lose. Everyone else, nothing, nada as if the post isn't even there. It's just very disappointing for me, I'd really like some support and encouragement while I take this journey... I like to help others when I finally find things that work for me.

I took Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace University class and after nearly 40yrs figured out how to write a budget. I'm still working on learning how to live on said budget. I'm a work in progress in so many ways. Anyway I was so happy and psyched to find FPU that I immediately became a facilitator at my church so i could share FPU with others in need. That at least went great :)

That's just the type of person I am so I get disappointed when I have something to give and people are disinterested. It hurts my feelings but, that's my issue not theirs right?!!

Me

Not a lot of pictures of me. First, I take the pictures and second I don't want to see me and how I look. My son took this about December 2011

Who would have thought?

When I have ever thought about losing weight the first thought is, "I'm going to starve so I'm going to fail!" It is truly amazing today, well the past week, how I'm struggling and failing at eating all the calories I'm supposed to! It totally helps like I never thought possible, how eating healthy really does fill you up! When you're eating fresh produce you can eat so much more than a little serving of chips.

Week 1

I decided that I should start blogging about me to keep track of me because me has been lost and forgotten by everyone for a very long time.

I jumped into a commitment to lose weight A week ago and it's going GREAT so far. I want to document me for me!

So I guess we'll see how this goes....